going back to the corner

friend foe acquaintance

2012-02-12T00:10:00.000+08:00

describing a friendship is not impossible but its just hard. to have the faith in someone is also hard. to plead for forgiveness is hard too. it may seem as though your friends are true to you but sooner or later you'll understand what friendship is and what is not meant to be. we've fallen, gotten up but there's always something that tries to keep you down low. these people are called idiots. everyone is an idiot to someone. unless you're not human. you can see if a person cares when you tell them things by the way they respond or when they talk to you or maybe the way they think of you. if a person cares they'll support you in any way. i just realised im out of the group. such a great way to start a month. wow. im glad. bloody mood-swings. nevermind i should really study now. maybe tomorrow.

haters stop hating laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :'((((

on friday suchi and tengteng skipped school. lazy people. typical friday. but we had spotcheck. some of us had our stuffs confiscated but some were lucky and one went home to avoid his phone from getting confiscated. lol. so after school i went with sya and her mom for lunch. thanks aunty! then we went to school to wait for gerard and her driver. we got chatime and sya tried it for her first time and she loved it. so then amirul kept pestering us about when are we reaching. when we got there they were just inserting the names. i got two strikes :3 and 3 spare :3 but that was in two games. we definately had fun. then i called my transporter. then we had to fetch his friend. went up and tried to sleep but two smartass couldnt silent their phones. slept at 6 something then suchi came in at 7.30 and ruined everyones nap D: she came in with her alarm and china, america's national anthem. can die. suchi started emoing, teng teng skyped with zhong lin and was on twitter while i watched secret garden :3 the we had dinner and went to the room. then we had our pillow talk. then we slept and the next day was road run. so proud of kiara :3 sunday is gonna be a stay at home and laze around day :B ciaozz <3

february 1, 1994

harry edward styles is qwertyuioplkjhgfdsazxcvbnm ADORABLE :3 yay to hoodies <3

useless gettting worst

2012-02-09T01:37:00.000+08:00

i wont say nothing or something but everything i do just seems to piss people off. i should really learn to stand by the corner while listening and not say a word. i dont know what to do about myself anymore. call me sensitive but i have been through more than you thought think or know i have. when times like this happen i cant afford to hold it back and pretend nothing happened before. i admit i hold grudges. i was told that i break peoples heart. ive made other people live harder. i cant please people. not that i dont know but what i seem to know seems to be wrong. its hard to pretend youre happy eventhough youre not. everyone has been through that and maybe so even went pass it and you know got over that stage. my words are said but never listened. what i do is seen but not remembered. what i feel is ignored. what i know is proven wrong. nothing im doing now is neither right nor wrong. when i tell you im not who you think i am you should have just trusted me. told you my words were not listened. so i am to be blamed for warning someone. i am to be blamed for using someone. i am to be blamed for anything and everything you can think of. i break promises. i contradict myself. i get scolded for not knowing what i want. theres like a maze going around in my brain. every time my brain is relaxed bad flashbacks or memories incidents or thoughts would just come rushing into my mind. i know im luckier than so many people on earth but who are we they he she it to compare. the only common thing we have is that we are humans. you cant say all of us have all the organ we have in our body or maybe the same cells. my point is that we cant compare BUT due to our low self esteem we do that often. i was told years ago that everyone has depression its just that whether its mild or not. minor or major.

no matter how far we are, we will still be aweosome

i dont wanna type any longer or more but i just wanna wish my brother a safe flight for tomorrow night at 10. we fought i cried i screamed you teased and lots more. i hate you and yet i still love you. the many reasons is as long as i have live. you thought me you woke me up( not literally but yeah) you tell me stuffs what cant be learnt we shared verbal stuffs we cared. its including you fatttyy.

if 21.12.2012 were to happen, i hope we'll meet again

its the end

2012-02-06T02:13:00.003+08:00

so umm chinese new year is has just ended. luckily i managed to colloect a few today ^^ so for the past few days we've all been busy and all but that didnt stop us from having fun :) we only got back to school on monday and it was kinda a horrible day cause we got screwed for not knowing something we werent taught. some teachers just had to open their mouth. the chinese (cool people) mostly hokkiens bai tin gong which is something like praying to the heavenly god and stuffs. so we chinese pray at midnight and stay up late. you get the idea. but i overslept so i did nothing :p

the next day was standard sports. teachers are geniuses at choosing date -.- tired k. then some of us thought of going home right after standard sports at about noon or a lil earlier but they just had to postpone it. like hello?! afternoon sun is the worst. dah laa theres a hole in the atmosphere. so we had it at 2.15. got home at 4. i went home and i stretched then i got a.....

tadaaaaa so proud of myself after 4 months of nothing :)

on wednesday, it was city day which means only kl people get it. unfair much :( but ni skipped school anyway eventhough there was standard sports. im sorry kiara-ians i am cool. i had to go to muar to pray then we stopped at melaka for food but the shop that we wanted to go to was closed D: so we had some chicken rice balls :O it was okay :S

thursday turned out to be horrible because of him. after his class every teacher started to get mad at us. its devastating. even pn dziana!

friday in school we had chinese new year celebration. guess what?! we're not allowed to wear cheongsam -.- major wth!? unfair laa tu. after the celebration we went back to class for maths then there was break and there was add maths. i made teacher mad on thursday but i made her happy on friday. fair. then we had sejarah -____- haiya. thank god he stop and let us breath. after sejarah was the end of school.

leaving jeffs house (:

wendy and i followed mei home. showered and had dominoes with daa. then we went to bai nian. we managed to visit 3 houses in 1 hour. it was a lil rush but we sure did have fun. we went to jeffs house first. faiz zhong herng and all were playing cards. they gambled for a while then shauqi joined us and we moved on to er er's house :) her house is pretty. sat for about 15 mins? then it started to drizzle. daa left for home for keropok lekor 50 bucks k. so we went without her to yue jens house. we wanted to go to sheng yees house too but we had to leave for rawang. meis mom sent us to rawang and we went to zhong herngs house. reached about 6.30? we talked ate talked watch tv talked and by then it was already 7.30 so we left for shi yongs house. carpool. then we went straight to stvns house.

reached there at 8.30. we were late for an hour. oops. it was loud when we entered and the house was wehfkjfhrehaifheao;fjqofjkefnkenragbrfndnmckeja;snrjdweoirhj0394u12904ur24tfjd BIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGG :O k im done with the size of the house. so i went to look for suchi and chin. then the horror. i had to walked up and down and around the house so i dont see 'ehem'. stvn called us(zhong lin and all) down to eat then i went back up to teng tengs room which is filled with stitch. then her room got a lil crowded so i asked stvn if we could go over to his room. he is okay ^^ so we lepaked there and after a while jason came :) we talk camwhored and spammed jason iphone until stvn left his phone with me. suchi and i went a lil too hyper and snapped random shots of our cool face leg hand and blanket :p hahaha i hope he didnt delete them :O there were about a hundred shots. then suchi and i had our pillow talk :D then the ex form 5's came in and we talked for a while and they said they had to chao. so we were like ooh okay. then after talking awhile with chin stvn jason and suchi, i had to leave. it was about 12 then. so early D: went home got cleaned up and went to bed. btw did i mention that i had to live without my phone for the whole day? D':

this special section is for dear aida
for you...
(btw fatttyy im stealing these)

suneo

lolololololol :D

memory bread

never liked shizuka :[

the stage

red purple blue green dark green

2012-01-23T07:07:00.001+08:00

heyyoooo. im up early today. dont ask me why. i had the urge to blog more like the time to blog about today. its chineeeee neuw year. the awesome first day. been collecting angpaos since two days ago ^^ twitter is overcapacity now. haih. i cant even retweet stuffs D: i have to keep clicking on retry and it'll only get through after 10 goddamn click or maybe more. people on the other side of the world, please sleep. almost everyone went back to their hometown and im not even sure if im going back. yesterday was really hectic. had to wake up at 6 leave the house at 7. got chinee new year stuffs had breakfast went to visit my grandfather followed mom to pay her stuffs went to sungei wang just to get snowflakes but they only had snowflakes special so then moved on to pavilion but no luck it was sold out there too went home sad had two so called reunion dinner. one at my grandfathers place the other one at my aunts place in subang. went home dead tired.

when i was younger, i use to hate lion dance. it creeps me out k. and and that thingy doesnt even look like a lion. and it colourful. it seems as though the 'lion' ate two people there. i've always wondered what would happen if the front person farted, what would the back person do. i pity the back one.

i just realised how inconsiderate people can get. how heartless people can get. how annoying people can get. how stubborn people can get. how people do stuff just for their own needs or want. i finally realise that time doesnt wait for anyone. so does people. grab or grasp ever chance you have. take it because you need to not because you want to. live life as it is. dont ruin others. lastly dont blame.

yes i stole this. muahahaha. k.

orang amerika kentut cakap EXCUSE ME. orang british kentut cakap PARDON ME. orang singapore kentut cakap FORGIVE ME. orang malaysia kentut cakap NOT ME

it happens everyday in 5 sc1. we all know that its nicholas who farted. such a bad actor.

happy birthday zhong lin (:
i just realise your birthday quite early ah ^^
anyway have a happy birthday and a happy chinese new year <3

2 days to be happy 19 days to be upset

2012-01-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

chinese new year is in 2 days (: whoots. i already some angpaos ^^ muahahaha. so chools. anyway after 19 days from today. fattyy is leaving :/ dont know whether to be happy or upset. btw paggie i do read your blog (:

making things clear

2012-01-19T00:38:00.000+08:00

pheww. its been a tiring week. thank god next week is chinee neuu year hols! we've been sleeping during our free periods. thank god we have free periods a few periods after practice. ughh. for the first time ever since i bothered about kiara, this year is the first year we're printing our banners. somehow i just find painting it looks so much better but we will end up paying more for the paint and cloth and stuff. we'll see how it goes :) this year seems like a really special year ^^ not because of spm not because its the year 2012 its because its the year imma get my licence but that'll be sometime june. so anyway, i was supposed to go to bangkok but my grandfather is sick so we burned the tickets. bye kap kap land :O i hope we're going to genting on saturday *hint hint daaaaaaaaaa!! * a few of science 1 and an arts 1 student is going. *hint hint ahh jaunnnn* cant wait for sunday to come (: if only you're coming back :/

if you were to procrastinate, it becomes your problem not every other people that knows you. i know i tuak ( think hokkien) a lot but you also what. i should really stop speaking so chinee-ish but its so additive. theres a reason why i call someone a fatty but you, you dont have one. it doesnt even make sense that youre calling him that. k im done about that.

people out there, dont sleep so late. you'll regret it. like how im regretting everyday for sleeping late. telling myself in the evening that i'll be sleeping early but i always end up asleep between 1-2. BTW PEOPLE OUT THERE AIDA HASNT BEEN TO GENTING BEFORE. oooppsss :p hi daa (:

theres always a reason for someone to do something. my reason for ignoring is because you dont deserve to be answered. fan xing ha ji gei. whats not meant to be is not meant to be. you dont force threatened or question someone so many times just to get what you want. think about what others want before doing anything cause you're not them so you dont have much rights to do anything unless they allow you to. but man im stubborn as hell so go. k thanks bye.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANIANS (:
you guys are awesome
love you to bits :p

happy soon to be 18th birthday (:
come back soon echo

page 9 of 366 #twitter lol

2012-01-09T17:14:00.001+08:00

its the fourth day of school and im already tired of it. sooo school was boring. aida didnt tell me what tears was. i was noisy. as usual. so imma talk about sports nao. kiara oh kiara ._. failure not this year k the previous years. we try'nna change history laik the movie the turning point: laughing gor returns the psychiatrist. he tried to brain wash everyone to go againt law and rules. there was police drug poppy flower some place which no plants could grow on bribes and killing and jail. there was this psycho guy who took out his kidney when he was in jail. ugghh. he's weird btw. anyway back to kiara. we the minions are changing our mind AGAIN. haiyaya. we were supposed to have our meeting today but saga and cemara decided to have it the same time and day as us so we couldnt have our meeting because we were NICE. ever heard of minions? its from despicable me. those yellow things up there. we are all determined but LAZY. its normal. btw yue jen you are the committee of the deco thingy. yay coco points! netball practices starts next week monday. imma go for the ceramah with nab on sunday. whooots ^^ we we sho lost. and and teacher had to ask us to help out for cheer. i mean spm year k. stress. dah laa got sports coming soon. kiara was the laziest. normal. we were the only team that didnt train. haiyaya. so we we starting soons. i hope. extra class is this saturday. uggh early morning. i wanna meet seng gang on that day. thanks mom. shitsz i just remembered i need to go for something on the 12th. dai dai dai umm wait i got nothing on that day ^^ k can eat peacefully :) chinee new year is chomingsz :))) holidays ya'llls. k im done for the month. ciaozzz :p

does looks matter so much to you?

2012-01-04T20:41:00.000+08:00

today started out well and it ended well.suddenly school doesnt seem so bad after all. i just hate not knowing whats happening. the new students had their orientation and we helped out. just like every starting of the year we choose our clubs and societies but this year is different. its our last year. we have spm. its gonna be tough but we're gonna make the best outta this year. maybe its just me but i dont wanna regret. having the thought of turning back time is bull.

anyway, fatttyy came back on new years. she got ~~fatter.~~ kidding she still looks the same to me. it feels as if she has never left. the following day i was out somewhere. i think i have short term memory loss. so then on wednesday i ewnt with fatttyy to get her phone then i helped her unpack. i is nice. (:

happy 2012

2012-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

its a new year now :) i know everything will go well. positive thinking here i come. happy birthday aunty. welcome back in 15 hours fatttyy. i was in valencia just now. yue jen had a small open house kind of a thing :) it was great. lyn xie is leaving soon. gonna miss her. i find malaysia's fireworks cheap and so not pretty. its a bit chi dun look at overseas ones. they make your eyes go *_* sparkly like daniel jorge's one :D im sure that everything is gonna go aweosomely prefect as god planned. bless you choolzsz readers. twitter failed everyone at the wrong time. the time when everyone wants to tweet. anyway last year was a great and memorable year cause it'll never come back. SPM SPM SPM. or maybe nicholas's version SPM SS PM. lol. i got a ticket to be the awesomest person ^^ goodnight people

HAPPY NEW YEAR :) AND ITS THE 8TH DAY OF CHRISTMAS

spread the love people <3

cina new year is early this year i like angpao. the look so chool but it is what is inside that counts ^^ mwehehehe

cried fought typed

2011-12-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

i feel blank now. i just feel stupid to be here. in this world. hey i know im not as great and good at studies like my sister and brother but that doesnt mean i dont deserve what they deserve. everything i do for you i get scolded, nagged and shits. its devastating k. its alright if nothing i do is right but when im telling the truth and you twist my words just because you didnt bother to remember that just kills me deep down under. you were the one that told me if there's anything i could come to you but somehow im just feeling you're the one i should avoid even when im feeling very down. you make me feel useless. hey like seriously you dont need me just tell me i'll leave. i feel like im being put into a cage by you. i just wanna go out before my spm years starts and all you do to me is nag me. you're just like the other but somehow when you say the say negative thing about me like them, yours make me feel like im really useless.

2 more days. fatttyy )':

oh btw orientation was today. brayden is in bestari ya'll damn cute. so is daniel jorge. his eyes sparkle *.* so pretty.

m

2011-12-29T07:18:00.000+08:00

you're taking everything that i like from my life. and you call that fair? i call this bullshit. you're just being a pain cause im having fun? wth man. dah laa next year spm. quite pathetic lor you. bull man bull. first sarawak now this? shit weyh. thank god fatttyy is coming back. i swear i would kill myself if i have to bear this for a month alone. fml

12 days of christmas

2011-12-26T17:00:00.002+08:00

one of the best christmas ever (:

yesterday was christmas :D presents!!! the day before yesterday was christmas eve :D 63 floors for teeny towah :D haha okay during the past few days i've been either going out with my mom, getting good lunches or or going to my cousins place or catching up with movies i havent see touch or heard. and/or rotting at home. i've got 17 more pages for my notes. sup sup sui k. but its taking me forever :D wait i mean D: soo my mom told me school is officially starting on the 4th and not the 3rd :B this is what i call fair k. whai ipod you can no connect to the chompueter.you asked me to uninstall then reinstall again. i followed what you said and you disappoint me DD: die itunes die! same goes to you internet D: you failed me. yesterday i followed my mom to a christmas dinner and that boy entertained me. we ate drank and drank more. i felt dizzy after awhile. i got an angpao for christmas ._. only got home at 12.30. toddlees. imma eat lunch now somewhere. it depends on my mom :O jeng jeng jeng..

meet conrad :D he laffs me :p

count down for fatttyy's return
6 days

a thousand years

2011-12-23T01:03:00.000+08:00

today is one of my most unproductive day. oh wait thats everyday ^^ lolol. anyway i still manage to do my notes, skyped, bought shoes no wait sandals, ate, onlined, ate, watched tv, made everyone stressed today. maybe everyday. schoool is starting like in 2 weeks time or was it less. fatttyy is coming back on the 1st. i cant go anywhere on the 1st :/ dang it.

suffocating

2011-12-21T23:11:00.000+08:00

well you seem different after you left. hmm so what are you now? there's no typo. anyway during the hols i've went out with daa, slept over at nicoles place, watched movie with cousins. watched movies with suchi and nicole.argue with my brother. talked to myself. okay maybe not that but i was bored. going out with daa was a last minute thing. we walked around, had chatime and she had her burger king (: sleeping over at nicole's place and the next day she went for camp :/ dum dum brandon. going out with suchi? she stay in federal hotel because her dad was out somewhere working? we watched mission impossible. she was late. as usual. had fridays. but it was a well spent day (((((:

long distance

2011-12-21T13:57:00.001+08:00

Come back soon fatttyy. I miss you :( I'll be waiting.. btw fatttyy read your message in fb k :) laffs yous :p

Have a safe trip daa and Nicole :)))
i want the bubble rice thing :3
thanks yous :p

RB @aidasofia365: cross

2011-12-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

Our psychological state allows us to see only what we want/need/feel to see at a particular time. What are the first five words that you see?

present

fool

secret

suicide

passion

okay i lied the first five words i saw was bailust, see,read,cut and pee.

p/s daa: i hate you because of yesterday
pp/s daa: i hate you even more after reading your blog

thank ah

cotton onnnn

2011-12-13T00:25:00.001+08:00

im sorry mom for being a pain today.

im bad at telling stories.
so there were a class of students who graduated. they became very successful. okay. umm after a few years, their professor invited them to a gathering. after eating and all they sat down to talk and their professor made them each a cup of coffee. and then umm, oh yeah he put them all in different types of cups. there were some good cups and pretty cups and something and a plain white cup. (the names of the cup was too lonng DD: ) so everyone chose every cup but the plain white cup. then the professor said whats outside does not matter but the inside.

you maybe different from the outside but somehow in the inside of each and every one of us, we're the same.

brother

2011-12-12T00:12:00.000+08:00

he'll make you miserable at times but most of the time he cares about you. telling you whats right and whats wrong. being there when you need him. helping you in studies. tells you lame jokes that'll make your day. telling you stuff you wouldnt think you'll know from anyone else. bringing you out for lunch or a movie sometimes both. HAPPY BIRTHDAY fattty!! you're leaving for melbourne in 2 months time. fatttyy is coming back soon. we shall go out then. have a great one :)) <333333

im sorrow i is too lazy to find a picture. eat your cake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! b^^d

wearing your shoes pointing at you

2011-12-11T15:37:00.001+08:00

what are words if we dont mean them. what are promises if we break them. what stories if you dont believe them.

prom night? gahhhhhh

2011-12-10T13:18:00.001+08:00

yesterday was one hell of a day. i was woken up by my mom at 10.30. i was exhausted like hell. i dragged myself to the computer cause i had a skype date with fatttyy. talked for an hour or so then she went out with her friends. i was starving too and i was alone. called my dad to get me something then i went to Solaris to meet up with my mom. got myself a drink then i spilt it on my mom. went to her office. instead of doing my bio i was watching glory jane.
after that i went to nichii to look at clothes then i got a call from ping kuang asking me if i was going to grand millennium for their prom. i was like shit i forgot DD: then i thought of forgetting about but then i felt bad so i texted brandon. he was there ._. die die die. my mom rushed me home it was 9 already. i only got home at 9.40 thanks to the jam. reached there about 10 but i had to walk over to grand millennium cause it was super jam. the first person i met was nicole and brandon.
when i went in they were announcing the prom king and prom queen. congratrs king jiat and tong tong (: then they had a dance competition. ding started dancing then most of the form 5's just joined in. then it was brandon tang's turn. he and ding had this dance competition between them but in the end jin fye won (: siet yen won best dressed. it ended and everyone went their separate ways. some of them went home. some went clubbing. got home about 12. it was a hectic yet enjoyable day.

is this good enough?

2011-12-09T02:51:00.001+08:00

being tired is not all of it

starts with f ends with s, 7 letters

2011-12-09T01:44:00.001+08:00

its saddening. maybe i have my own 'clan' but hey what tha ****? seriously? being pushed aside? i'll never do that to you. using people when needed? hey **** you, have i ever done those things to you. no. this is bull man. i dont take bull****s its effing ridiculous k. i tried to spare my bloody little time with everyone k. the fact that i bothered to remember about you people. bull im just being an *****. @$#%^&. i shall be selfish. saying yes knowing you need them badly is just pathetic. oh wait im pathetic. my bad for blaming all of you. **** *** *******

come back fatttyy we've got lots to do.
on your skype in the morning on the 9th.

dear m,

2011-12-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

what do you mean i cant use my own money to buy it. i have a lot of dress? umm i dont think so. you only bought me a dress. okay maybe two but the rest i find my ways to get them k. i might have one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen dresses but that dress is different :/ i want it!! thanks and i love you! :D <3

universal studio singapore

2011-12-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

wheee i finally did my nails :3

loving the cow (hardest k)

on the 24th, in the afternoon i went to far east to get the stamping nail art thing and sent my dress to the taylors. i went to watch narnia the musical at night. we were late for the show. its seriously good but it ended on the 1st of dec.

ont the 25th, i stayed at home the whole afternoon. at night my brother, my cousins and i went to watch aladdin the musical. that one was hilarious. can roflyao. its until the 17th of dec. we have one in malaysia too but i dont know if its as good as it. the one i saw in singapore is about aladdin a teenager who just finished school. helped an evil mastermind to steal a jed bracelet which was with jasmine. they rubbed the bracelet a female genie appeared. they went to batu caves to get the lamp. they called it the i lamp. and the rest of the part is unexplainable or maybe its just that im too lazy. hmm.. my advice is go watch it. lolololol

on the 26th, i watched narnia again but this time my cousin was in it. right. after the show we had supper at crystal jade somewhere. on the way back, they had this conversation..

u: do you wanna see lee hsien loong's house
b: you mean that kung fu guy?
u: how can you not know your neighbouring's country prime minister?
b: i know tunku abdul rahman, tun abdul razak, tun hussein onn. tun mahatir, abdullah ahmad badwi and the present one najib.
u: how can you not read newspaper?
b:it can spoil your eyesight
u: you have to read the newspaper!
b: why cant i choose to read or not.
u: i read the newspaper since i was young k!
b: thats why your eyesight is so bad.
u: its important to read it.
b: i'll read it if they ask during interview.

i summarised the whole conversation but i laughed till my stomach hurt like crap.

on the 27th, i was so bored i bedazzled 3 pairs of shoes.

on the 28th, i woke up at 10 and i got a text from my aunt saying she was up in singapore. so i went all the way to 313@somerset to meet up with her and my cousin. walked around the whole of archard. had lunch in crystal jade again. then my aunt got me a shirt. thank you aunty. then i went back home around 7? had dinner and watched a movie or was it two.

on the 29th, i just found out there was ikea in singapore and theres more than one! like whut? yea no joke.

on the 30th, i had the best pizza i've ever tried in my entire life. i ate there a few times but you'll never get bored of it. the shop is called spizza. i went to the one in balmoral plaza. juliana is ham and cheese but you'll have to try isabella. its parma( if thats how you spell it ) ham and plant. i mean veggies dont remember the name but its awesome! the pasta is good too. just go there!!!!!

december,
on the 1st, when i woke up i got a text from jaime saying that she is up in singapore again for 2 days. met up with her at 313@somerset at 11. what to do i had to walk right. so we walked to a lot of shops. she bought a dress (: i was home only at 4 i think or was it later. i was 5mins late cause my brother left to see my other cousin. i was supposed to stay with my other aunt on that very day. so i end up going online. at night i went out for dinner somewhere near the hotel. go back to the hotel, cleaned up, watched the scooby doo movie. hey it was good okay.

tooooooooooooooooooooo beeeeeeeeeeeeeee continueddddddddddddddddddd

to do this hols

2011-12-06T22:25:00.001+08:00

i've got plenty but i'll just list down the fo sho ones (:

-go out with kim and yue jennyy
-sleepover at nicoles (i know i do it often but im doing stamp art there)
-more sleepovers!
-bio notes DDD:
-moovieessss
-maybe exercise..
-eat,sleep,drink

lolololololololololol i no time :/

nudge me when you're there

2011-12-05T00:13:00.001+08:00

i have so many things to type but i'll wait for next time. its late. my sister is in new zealand. i just found out. lololol. anyway have fun fatttyy (: when you're back i dont think there's any space in the wardrobe for you :/ we'll just get a new one k ^^ 1 month more. got you something. i'll continue it some time later, thats is if anyone bothers. ciaoszz

stamping nail art

2011-11-24T16:34:00.001+08:00

what up peeps, today i went to far east plaza and i saw the greatest shop ever lived :3 its ah-may-zing. call it konad.

clicknetworktv laa

mine's something like that except the animals are cuter ^^ there's a cow, dog, bear, a chick and three other more that i cant remember.and i got a flower plate. this is how we use it :p

btw it dries fast. nicole said they sell it in malaysia but its rather expensive i got everything less than S$ 20.

be positive for once

2011-11-24T11:41:00.001+08:00

hey seing imma borrow this. i dont know how im gonna return it but i'll think of a way..

okay so.. getting your period 'randomly' is impossible. you should've expected it. dont blame it. next, that means they're not worth crushing on or you didnt put in any effort. third, maybe you did it the wrong way, you might think you studied hard but you didnt. fourth, you're just lazy then. fifth, maybe it wasnt meant to work. sixth, why bother ignore or maybe that person ran out of credit or there was no connection or they just ran out of battery. next, then mix around. sitting and staring at people wont help you make friends. last lo, then be better. do something.

the winds blows and here i am

2011-11-22T19:36:00.001+08:00

that means i gained weight. o'tay. so im in singapore now. feeling useless for being useless. so i was here since the 18th which was a friday. so imma start with friday. i woke up at 8 cause my brother woke me up. got ready and had breakfast with mom and bro. at 10.30 we left for mont kiara. reached there at 11 and waved our goodbyes to my mom. we sat in the front. so we got all the spaces that we want. they had raindrops falling on my head. reached there about 3 something but only got back home at 4.30 sonmething. that very night there were guest. it was a big dinner. i helped out by eating. im nice.

on saturday, i woke up late. very late indeed. so instead of having breakfast during the morning i had breakfast during lunch. i went to meet up with gerard anthony and their friend who is shorter than me ^^ im not short after all. but before meeting up with them i had to walk from one end of orchard to the other. so tiring. they were at orchard central and i was somewhere near the forum. anthony wanted to eat, so we watched him eat. then i wanted iceblendedchocolate so i drank. then after walking around it started to rain and we went our separate ways. got home and i had to leave to somewhere again. i cant recall the name. then i got home again and we had to go someone's house for dinner. the lamb soup was awesome and that guys house has an elevator. its only 4 floors.

on sunday, i woke up early. wait is 9 early? anyway, i watched tv the whole day that day. wait i went somewhere too but i forgot. hmm..

on monday, i was up early. wait whatswith me and i woke up. lolololol.so by the time i got ready and all my mom and grandfather came.wheee. but they were tired so..they slept. anyways, they went swimming. after that i went to arab street. ooh wow. it turned out to be better than i expected. i like pie.

today, i went to the hospital. lolol wait i mean i followed my mom and all to the hospital. james came along. had 2 breakfst. oh shitnz. today's not over yet so im blank. chaozz (:

i do not stand corrected

2011-11-12T17:31:00.000+08:00

do they look alike?

anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATTTYY :D may you get the job offer that you want. have fun in new zealand. 2 more months. we shall unite. okay thats sound lame. i havent talked to you for awhile. its your birthday but im requesting for stuffs. lolololol :p come back and we go shopping. im dying to tell you stuff but i dont have the chance to.

on saturday, i too cool, okay wait thats everyday. lololol ^^ i went over to nicole's house and i went for a treasure hunt. i saw tong tong (: she brought her sejarah textbook to the treasure hunt. it was at taman tun. i sweated after 2 months of sitting around. i hated it. so un-chon-four-table. i only ate a piece of raspberry cheese for lunch?! damn sad. i was starve running. it was torturing. after the treasure hunt we went to the park. we did tumbling there ^^ i was dark. the grass was wet. i nearly fell :/ all of us was fighting to sit in front. after that we went for dinner at bangsar. it took them awhile to decide what they wanted to eat. i wanted alexis but everyone was like NOO! ): so close yet so far. so we ate at this shop i dont know what the name is but it was :/ then we went back to the centre and i played tiny tower! wheeeeeeee. it was a long day. tiring like shnitz. went home cleaned up and slept like a pig.

jack anderson brown

2011-11-09T18:18:00.000+08:00

isnt he the cutest thing ever?! haha today we had to perform for coco day. it was a last minute thing and we only had 2 practice. half the time we practiced we were minding our own business. everything went up but it was all elevator ^^ . cant blame us for being 'weak'. so right after the whole thing i called my mom and i followed nicole to her moms school. i wanted to see jack and tahir but tahir was absent. a few of them were. they all so adorable! :3 meet them and you'll love them. fo sho. going to singapore in 9 days. gonna meet sya gerard jaime and maybe jia ming there. my to do list has progress. back on the 4th.

on monday, i went to mid valley with nicole. more like i slept over but anyway we went there and the first thing nicole did was buy a shirt. after that we went to eat at delicious. horlicks believed that i was a vegetarian. lololol. k i think im just a very good liar.. then we walked around and i wanted to have snowflakes but the queue was longer than you can imagine. we went to gardens to watch a movie.we watched tower heist. its good. watch it people (: its damn farny. im serious. then after that we had dinner at chili's. went back around 7 or 8. i tried to skype with fatttyy but my call was rejected. sad.but i forgot my password anyway so it doesnt really matter..

fatter boo

2011-11-06T23:55:00.001+08:00

i just read your blog fattty. the picture is on my/your table. more like my table now anyway its still there and i put it in a frame k. after a week of receiving your present i only found out there was a note there. chatime is opening everywhere. come back soon. i think you'll complain if you see the number of shoes i bought this year :p btw today i got a crocs ribbon mary jane. got special offer k. alex and mummy each bought a pair too! saturday, i had subway for breakfast and i was still hungry so i waited until 2 and then i had pepper lunch with my mom in pavi. it was ahmayzing. the house internet crashed. dont know what the hell is wrong with it. so i go everywhere for internet. im not celebrating christmas in singapore because im celebrating it with you all in malaysia same goes for new year.you too impatient k.be patient like me (: LOLOLOLOLOL joke joke. im like the most impatient person ever lived. tiny tower is a mini building game. you hafta play it. make sure you activate your fb right after your exams are over. our 'uncle' is looking for you. good luck on your last two papers.

more like you suck

2011-11-06T16:23:00.000+08:00

bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch. nak gaduh ke? lifeless slore. we dont hate k. we just dislike your attitude. just say that you dont like it man wtf is wrong with your mouth. oh hey! exams are over!! im bored with life now. nothing to do. bored. i. tell. you. i feel so free. fattty by tomorrow you'll be done with your papers. webcam! so recently right after finals the very friday. we all went to sunway. we followed dereks car. ricky! nicole went there by cab. i was with debbie, jaime, suchi and derek in the car. oh wait i forgot ricky! man he talks non stop weyh. so we met nicole in sunway. we were supposed to go back to dereks house but they were hungry so we went straight. we ate at delicious. it was great. then after that we went to chatime. derek BELANJA ^^ haha i was kidding but he really did. i shared with jaime we had passion fruit qq. it was nice. derek had mango qq and the rest had something i forgot. i spilled some in the car cause i no careful. so after that we stayed at dereks house till 4 something. we got ourselves cleaned up and we headed to ou. debbie and suchi went to watch movie and nicole jaime and i walked around.

oh yeah i forgot.
happy birthday fatso! (:
have a great one

boo boo fied

2011-10-27T23:35:00.003+08:00

only 3 more months to go! im spending christmas and new years in malaysia after 4 years because im going to singapore this 18th of november to the 4th of december ^^ then later on i'll find ways to entertain myself. exams are ending next week which is the 4th of november. im getting chatime on that day! after that im planing to go to sunway to celebrate halloweeeenn. on the 6th. i wanna go to genting during the december hols. oh yea now gym classes are only for all stars. i'll be lucky if they have a second audition. so maybe 3 weeks ago was the last time for me to go to gym. but anyway snowflakes is a must! you must play tiny tower! its an awesome game. oh and we have prefects and librarians hi-tea this saturday. i is fat now. fattty has you receivedd ze EY letter and did you asking our aunty about accent----? you better! k that all i need to showeer and study now.

i studied while playing tiny towers today!
i managed to finish 2 chapters of chem and 2 chapters of bio ^^ chools

chaooosssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

i think i just fell in love with you
i need you, sleep ^^

pig pork non halal

2011-10-23T11:55:00.000+08:00

im seeing chatime opening everywhere nao but fatttyy is asking me not to eat or drink any taiwan stuffs. so today i jogged and i got a straight bow and arrow. i just need to bend forward so my leg looks upright for spike. i is aching. so today imma go over to nicole's house. i dont know what time. then we will go over to gWace's house. i might sleepover at nicole's place. can i? mom's outta the country tomorrow. add maths tomorrow beech. onzz. foood fiesta tomorrooooooow :D

think thought said

2011-10-22T18:56:00.000+08:00

its been 10 years since i studied in bestari. green and white. awesome! friends come and go. they leave when you need them the most but those who were meant to leave stayed. wadahell? anyway we started our finals last week it lasts 3 weeks but in between the first and third week is a break cause on tuesday to thursday is a holiday. i found out sri cempaka got a whole week off. we is sad people. im going to school on monday only casue there's canteen day and and we have add maths class :( im so screw for log. my last minute studying helped a lil. thank god we had tips and all but it was one hell of a week. glad that its partially over. cant wait to go to singapore. a place where i can do anything and everything. FREE. it turns out im not allowed to go for jayesslee's concert. thanks a lot finals. haih.. now they're selling the ticket for rm50 if a student card is presented. :'((( ayayayayayay i've gotten heavier. i is goings to not eat. its impossible. i need food. i shall walk to and back school everyday. 23km only what sup sup sui. i'll start doing that on the 30th of feb next year. promise. i'll get back my study mood on monday. i hope. HOLS ARE COMING!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

TYPO sells a pencil case that say OMG WTF :OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

why must finals interfere with everything

2011-10-15T17:31:00.000+08:00

omgwtfbbqlol. during the 1 week break in between of finals i wanna do 3 things.

1. prefects evening
2. jayesslee's concert
3. attend a wedding
4. go gym

smack bite snooze

2011-10-15T08:52:00.003+08:00

im feeling exhausted. studying for hours is so not my thing. finals is in two days. its been awhile since i blogged. my chatbox is missing. jeng jeng jeng. i have no mood to do anything. im so screwed for sejarah physics and chem especially chem. i forgot all the formula's. i should really do something about it. for the past few days i could only study at most two hours then my brain would fail me. to do three hours of studying i'll have to break them up and so i did. i studied after coming home from school. then i would relax myself by eating watching drama's or talking to z peoples. then i would have my nap. i would be awake by midnight. then i will study study eat study study and decide to do something else. i would doze off by 2 3 or 4. in school, i cant be bothered to study dont know how they do it. i cant do when there's noise. this might be my last post in three weeks time. and people spare me the drama's. i have enough of those in my life..

good luck final exam peeps and cheer aces audition-ers (:

i decided i shant go for the audition. too risky. they're not going..

12 things to do after finals

2011-10-05T00:57:00.001+08:00

i finally got a few after cracking my head

-go to japan and look for takano yuki (rather impossible)
-shop with fattty when she's back
-sleepover at sya's daa's and nat's place ^^
-go dessert hunting with daa
-go to singapore (so on ya'll)
-meet up with jia ming, jaime and gerard in singapore ^^
-eat lose weight eat and lose weight again
-watch finish big bang theory and how i met your mother
-meet up with nat at sarawak :3
-drink and eat all the chatime and snowflakes i want
-get all the sleep i need (its not fun to sleep after 1 k)
-meet up with umm ospaceespacec if i have the guts to do so

more to come ^^V

a dream that became a nightmare

2011-10-02T10:43:00.001+08:00

hmm so yesterday started like this. i woke up at 9 bla bla bla turned on the computer and i had to go over to my cousins place. my brother and i wanted to eat japanese but it was under renovation so we ate pizza instead. at 2 something he had to rush to pick my mom up while i watched x-men. dont bother asking me which one. so then i fell asleep and my mom called me so i woke up. i found out that she didnt pick up my dress for the dry cleaners. so i had to go home to get another one. lol by the time we left it was 6 something already. we reached pj hilton just in time. the food was ay-okay. the bride looks really pretty (: everything was purple and white. such an awesome colour ^^ then by the time we reached home fatttyy was asleep already. and fml cause i woke up at 2 because i stomach was aching like hell. i just realised i had a gastric attack. i vomited 3 times and seriously i felt like dying. it went on and off. it was one hell of a night. today im not sure if im allowed to watch a movie :/

longer than a decade

2011-10-01T02:46:00.003+08:00

for me today is a friday. for the past few days i didnt update or log in into anything. i was sleeping most of the time. i didnt study and im so so screwed now. exams are in 2 weeks time and i have not started anything. my mom went to taiwan leaving me with my brother and dad. i didnt get to go out until thursday. my brother brought me to ou. we had bbq plaza for tea. he had to fetch me that very day. he's a big help when it comes to add maths or physics. lucky me. single basing is awesome!!! :D liberty was hard and everyone was sweaty. two people ffk-ed me. haih. i blame their parents. intan and i skippeed tumbling cause we didnt want to do it in front of many people. intan is a very lucky girl. if only.. so tomorrow my cousin is getting married. wheeeeeeeeeeeeee :D more babies to come. it was supposed to be at empire but the kitchen blew up so they arranged it to be held at pj hilton. 2 down many more to go!! :D hohohohohoho.

on friday i went to gym. mom didnt know about it. so right after school debbie suchi and i went to sunway and we walked around and had chatime whilee nicole was with her friends. it was one hell of a night. in a bad way. because suchi just left me like literally because she didnt tell her mom that she was going to gym. same goes to me but i went. debbie left earlier. i walk around and looked around when nicole was in the cinema. aida was supposed to pick me up at 6 something but it turned out she couldnt come so i called nicole but she didnt pick up her phone. can die k. the twentieth calling her finally she pick up but she was out already. so i waited for her and my battery nearly dieed and man i was so screwed. so we reached gym at 8.45. someone said they werent going and i saw them there. lol. i was single based. it was superbly awesome! :D iwannagofortheauditionbutiknowicantgetin :/

taunting slapping bitching

2011-09-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

we had school on saturday. we had to follow our thursday timetable supposedly but it turned out that we had to study different subject but it wasnt really studying. the whole form 4 combined classes. everyone was talking and teachers had their group the students obviously have their own group. some people are just asshole-lic. didnt bother to go for the last two periods. found out they didnt even study. so i no loss. jeng jeng jeng. my head is gonna blow up soon :/

longing for something good to happen

2011-09-24T01:46:00.000+08:00

i've been away from the comp for days but i have my ways. so monday was an ordinary day. there wasnt any assembly. on tuesday mmm hate it. things happen. no one is to be blamed except for you self-centered-ness. mind asking before doing something. its not hard to ask and thinking yo sacrifice a lot but not having any initiative when doing it then you're screwed. mind me but i think you got your ears clogged up. just ask if you need someone to take you to the doctors. so the night before wednesday i had a bad migraine. it was real bad. so after english i went home. followed my mom to the city. went home with her friend. so thursday is another pissing off day. sometimes i wonder where did you put your brain. if nothing is happening then do something sitting there and wait wont help one bit. dont ruin chichi's life please. we were supposed to take the yearbook picture that day but nicole went home so.. we did. today i went over to my aunts place. i got my cds and left when it was 10 past 9. i was famished back then. night world ^-^V

make me a rainbow

2011-09-18T12:39:00.000+08:00

lulz. i've been talking to someone i hardly talk to lately. i got myself a new friend. someone ditched me so i cant say a thing. im usually left speechless by you. whai you no reply? the fatty trio's are planing a holiday. i cant wait for fatttyy to come back. so anyway, finals are in 5 weeks time. yes i counted, so? i was alone for awhile yesterday so i went to popular and i was reading the form 4 physics book. latent heat of fusion and latent heat of vapourisation. im confused now. there was a formula but i forgot what was it it was something Q=m something. let me be. i finished 2 essays for sejarah *proud* today i stretched and i sweated after so long. lol. i got my spike again b(ü)d . i lost it before this p(•_•)q . by 3 i'll be off to sunway to eat :B

start of a new day

2011-09-16T00:14:00.002+08:00

leaving the past without regrets. getting back up. bend down again. *picks up a tissue* k so today a brand new thursday, it turned out to be a good thursday. to me. nothing special happened but today it just feels good to have today. even though i neary slept for bio, forgot to do my compo, listened in chem class, talked during bm, had a great time during english and sejarah was normal. chi chi gave me a hello kitty mask. its pink. WD's favourite colour. daa wants to join our vlog thingy but we havent created an account yet. sya wants to use blogger. we have more to decide on so stay tuned..

spit it and be told

2011-09-14T19:04:00.001+08:00

make it a habit. you say? oww my eye hurts like crap now. so anyway today we had a merdeka and raya celebration in school. almost all the form 4 prefects and librarians wore tradisional clothing. we look so colourful. we had to perform two songs and a fashion show. after the celebration we had to go back to our classes. we didnt study for english but we did for moral and add maths.after that we had a jamuan with the whole school. just like last year. i remembered we played monopoly deal last year. good ol' times. this year isnt that bad either. sya and i are gonna make a vlog. *thumbs up* header to be changed soon. wait for me.

double click to confirm

2011-09-13T22:37:00.000+08:00

you know whats funny? i dont know either.

life no easy face it

2011-09-10T17:48:00.000+08:00

together we ace eating. i slept the whole afternoon. my back aches now. a few people were absent today. we started a new chapter for physics already. so fast. same goes to add maths. our maths teacher was absent so we talked the whole period. during bm there was a presentation. after school we said our goodbyes. wanted walk to groupbase with gerard to meet up with sya. halfway there i saw syahir and brandon in front of amad's house. i asked for a ride they said sure. nice people. wanted to wait for amad but they said they would send us there first. gerard said it would be impossible to reach there before sya but we did. we sat where we sat the last time with nat :'( i ate the same thing like the last time. went back at 2. was walking halfway back to school and i saw my dad near padimas. man im lucky. we didnt have to walk to groupbase and back to school. i feel so special :3

seeing you from a different view

2011-09-10T17:13:00.002+08:00

you know, people dont read minds unless you are charles xavier. which is pretty impossible because we aint no mutants. if we were that'll be sometime in the future. reading peoples blog makes us feel connected. you're always getting pissed then you ask me why im pissed? dude look whose talking now. today my relatives came over again. had to wait for them to come over before i could eat lunch. i aws on the comp practically the whole day. im still not done with my sejarah presentation. whai so forgetful? kay left today morning. the next time she'll be back is in 2 years time. which is 2013. gonna miss her. fatttyy is coming back this december i think or was it january. school last week started out fine then it got rather depressing. was busy argueing with some ab. can die k. i wants to go s'pore during the next hols. cheeracesawardday was said to be canceled. i no sure. i just heard it. there will be cheer auditions on tuesday from 4 till 5.30 earliest, 6 latest. so be there people. im just waiting for my waffles. thank you seng gang :D

uninspired

2011-09-08T23:31:00.003+08:00

this whole week im sitting with grace i mean weird grace O: its fun sitting next to her. what to do. aida ditched me. we didnt get back our bm test papers. when we walked into class the first thing she said was dont ask about your test papers :/ gotta get ready my oral and lisan script. so tired. lately this pissing off people is getting very pissing off. can die talking to him. whai you like you argue with me? its rather saddening k. not like you were clear when you told anyone. you're not the only one living on this earth k. you can get pissed why cant i? its my turn now. i think fatttyy is having her exams now. good luck and btw you forgot to go online today! i waited. i need to finish my sejarah presentation and the notes. kay is leaving on saturday :/ i'll miss her. hope she comes back soon and we shall hang out again (: my cousin is getting married on the 1st of october. damn son it clashed with christina's birthday :/ i hafta go to the wedding. oh wells its one or the other..

everyone is moody-fied. hope you get well, my favourite past time (:

making an effort

2011-09-07T21:47:00.003+08:00

the first day of school. lol. everything went ay-okay *double thumbs up* until it was english which is the last two periods. the whole day we didnt study. wheeeee. it was nice to be back in school. im a bad friend. went home and slept. feeling very tired recently. so today we had this agm for st john. its weird i tell you. we got back some of our papers. not fails so far *shows proud face* i need to talk to someone now.

click on this link. together we shall support leonard (:

its what your hearts tells you

2011-09-05T22:16:00.003+08:00

for the past few days after coming back from pd i have been watching movies. went to tropicana city and empire. i went empire today and i spent the whole 2 hours there sitting and going on facebook and playing angry birds. lol. told you i had a lifeless day. we left empire at 6 and damn son it was jam on the way to mont kiara. i had to walk to collect the laptop and then i had to wait for 45mins and we reached mont kiara at 8 :/ school is starting tomorrow. hoping my result wont turn out so bad *fingers crossed. im just hoping nothing will go wrong on the 16th of september :/ haih there so many things running through my mind now. oh yeah! on sunday i was a genius. i twisted my leg again because i was jumping. haih. now it hurts. dont wanna go to school this week. aida isnt here. alone in front. can die. dah laa pe tomorrow. lonely much?

let me let it go

2011-09-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

hey its me, mind thinking what you have done for me. sometimes i wonder if you ever bother about my future. you just tell me oh you get that for me. when i ask for something it'll either be wait then i'll never get it or no which is obvious i'll never get it. it'll never be from you. i know you got your problem and all but hey i've got mine too and im going through my mid life crisis now. you repeat you complain i listen. why is it when its my turn you just turn over and you put a stop in my life. i still remember those words you said if i wasnt happy with something i could come to you because you said you were my friend. and i did. but all i got was you're bitching too much. im like wadafak. everything i do is wrong. k fine. you can just open your mouth and tell me. every time i tell you something you'll be like ooh okay umm yeah. maybe i'll just keep things to myself now. get depression suicide and die. maybe its best of both worlds. practically everywhere i go i will get depressed. even my room its a place to let out and get pissed at myself

everyone wants to feel appreciated for their presence. mind giving me a life?

i dont even know if i need you here

2011-09-01T22:18:00.004+08:00

i just came back and the first thing i heard from you were insults. i know how many times you have said it i bet you said its your first because you've said it more than your fingers could count. somehow you always think you're right. mind opening your mind and try accepting. on monday i was at nicoles place. we went to solaris to eat lunch. ordered using an i-pad2. cool shop. went to nicoles moms bosses house. saw aaron and joshua there. cute boys. btw they're kids.

on tuesday i woke up at 8. got ready and left to my cousins place. but i had breakfast before going there. saw my uncle and twin cousins eating there. we were about to leave when they got there. before we left for pd we had lunch at ..(oh shitnizt i dont remember) then we headed off for pd. there was a lil jam so it took us 2 hours to get there. we stayed at lexis something the legend something water chalet. its legendary there. i like. there was a long queue to check in. it took about half and hour and there were no place to sit. we unpacked our stuffs and we went to the beach. the room is a beaut. when you walk in the floors is like the rocky toilet floor. you'll see a sink. turn to your right and you'll see the shower and the bathtub. in between the sink and the shower is the room. the floor is parquet. tv on the left. king sized bed right in front of the tv and the queen sized one is by the window. look out of the window you'll see the beach. there's a balcony. we went to the beach and i built a sandcastle how grown up of me? they went to the waters but i didnt cause i wasnt right for the waters. the water hates me btw. so after that we got cleaned up and we headed for dinner. knowing its the first day of raya not many shops will be open and true enough there werent many. so we went to a seafood restaurant which doesnt serve fried cuttlefish (i dont know why). it was a filling dinner. yumms

on wednesday, MERDEKAA. k umm we woke up around 8 plus and ate breakfast which they served. it was a buffet. right. umm. there was a board pointing to a pillar saying it was the egg corner and i didnt get my egg that very morning. after breakfast we went to the 'fun ride' in front of the hotel/chalet/apartment. it was awesome. then we moved on to the beach. we went kayaking in the waters :3 at first i went with my uncle. my arms ached. its seriously very tiring. then i went with sara. it became less tiring. we wanted to go to the island but we u-turned in the end. they went to the pool and we had to get the guy to fix the lock. uhuh. showered and then was on the internet for a while. had pizza for lunch then we went back and i was on the i-pad again. svm is cool k. fatttyy didnt reply me. not her only. so anyways after that they went for archery. i failed. but it was in the circle. hmm. im getting my chocolates :D wheeeeeeeeeeeeee. so after that they played football and i was in the shade. the sand is soft and not white. we got the buggy to send us back to the room. had lunch at another seafood restaurant and this time there were seafood and venison meat which i cant eat :/ cleaned up and slept. they were watching x-men. i fell asleep halfway

1 sept, woke up at 9. ate breakfast and this time i got my egg. nice. stayed in the room and went online till it was 11 something when we decided to check out. there were no queue. so it was fast. left the place at 12. bye bye pd. it only took us an hour plus to reach home. thank god. the trip was awesome. but i had a cut on my foot. oh wells. got back and well i was back on the i-pad. O: hmm watched x-men first class. finally k. nice movie mmhmm. ate dinner and i went home. i ate my second dinner. fatttyy will understand why.

its 2 now. tataaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

happy birthday gene! (:

stay cute and chubby

same goes to yun ken (:

except the cute part. hmm..

everybody makes mistakes

2011-08-29T21:31:00.002+08:00

its been a while. to be more specific its been 6 days. on the 24 we were in the mids of taking our monthly test. all i know after the 23rd and the 24th i lost 12 marks for both maths and add maths. so i died. for a second. anyways i slept at 3. i had panda eyes. so cool. after exams i slept like a pig. on friday i was a sad child. first i got my physics results. hmm sad much. aimran was the highest which was 80 and the lowest was above 10 i think. anyways i was the only girl in school and i had to listen to jia ming talk about cookies draw cookies. jia ming drawing cyanide happiness and jun rui as usual counting stuffs. it was a dull and boring day but there were no dramas so i was fine with it. only 15 people came. after that we waited for nat and went to lily's house. thanks stevion for sending us there. her house i humongous. her mirror is to die for. stayed there for an hour plus watching her play pokemon. left for ou after that. stayed there till 10.30. walked around and ate some food. bought froyo and went to the futsal court to meet nil and all. good day out.

on saturday, i was out with my mom the whole day. such a lovely daughter. went threading. starved myself. went home and slept. woke up ate like a pig. met my cousin for the last time. missing her already. haih.

on sunday, i stretched. big achievement. *puts on a proud face* at 10.30 michelle left. bye bye :'( my relatives came over so we had lunch but i still dont get it why did we eat vegetarian? so went to ou to meet up with nat and nicole. they were at wong kok. two people were following them. they are jeremy (leonard) and roberto (eugene). they're nice people. nat scared them. typical nat. so they wanted to watch cars but they ended up looking at shoes and they went to the batting cage. i sat and watched. nat was so hyper. met nil amer and choo too. we went to kfc to eat. haih fattening much? but i ate anyways. went to the sib concert. we went late cause we ate at some shop starting with the letter s. it ended at 10.30. was suppose to sleepover at nats place but we ended up it nicole's place.. nat and i onlined till 2 we had a great time talking.

heartstrings

2011-08-23T23:44:00.003+08:00

why are you so worried when someone talks to your you know who. none of us would take him away from you. we no slore. such a fail in test. shall fail all. need to study now. im so blardy tired. chao~~

new day new life new me

2011-08-21T01:09:00.002+08:00

i slept at two yesterday. i slept like a pig. always do. heh. woke up at 12 and hello world. i was supposed to be awake by 7.30 or later but i got up way later than that. i had peanut butter sandwich for my ' breakfast' at 12.30 after a while i figured that i got ditched by my family so i called my mom. had 'lunch' at 3 at nando's mmmhm it was legendary. its been months. we around looking for clothes then went home straight. did a flip through to my sej book. mwehehehe. spending saturday night with the awesome monsters. i studied bio. my cousin's bio notes book is full as for us its emp to the ty. we dont have one anyway. i stole her notes. at 10.30 tiring much. i asked brother for help. imma lost in physics. so we took an hour plus for him to explain and for me to understand the archimedes principle. your up next bernoulli. nutrition is long. whats coming out it chem? i zont know. thank god its on thursday. nat is choming back (: im glad she is. i really miss her <3

words hurt more than actions

2011-08-20T00:57:00.003+08:00

maybe im just sensitive but i think you're mean. i promised to let it go and i shall. i just wanna say i dont blame but when you make me do it dont blame me. im random when i type because what ever that comes to me will be typed out. you are adding salt and pepper to this. i'll just turn off then fire. pretending things didnt happened will affect your conscience. it haunts people. it did haunt me. heart know stomach understand. muahahaha think cantonese. everything you do you have to pay for it. somehow. jia ming says i make the african people go hungry because im wasting my energy. doesnt that even make sense? well it does to him. he said when i waste my energy i eat and when i eat i will somehow affect the african kids -.- the lol-er.

installation was on a friday. it went smoothly. no studies supposedly but there was bm. after school we went to eat at woh kei. long time no eat there. lol. grace as usual she doesnt eat. su chi usual-er doesnt finish her food. after that we walked back to school in the hot sun. su chi and i stopped at every shade we saw and ran when we cant find any shade. did the bio project. oh shitniz i forgot about the proposal. whoops. we are building our very own hydroponic system. of course grace and i just watched cause we were wearing skirt and they had to drill stuff. so instead of helping my group i helped jia ming because his group is doing aquaponics. we cool science 1 people. jun rui the perfectionist isnt happy with the pipe that he drilled so he sawed it to make it look better -.- haih. khee lim brought his yesterday's dinner because he want to use it as a fertiliser. he sacrificed his dinner i think. we planted our seeds and then we became cool people because all of us went home. followed grace home. did mask. strawberry mmmm. they baked and all i sat and ate. same old same old. bathe and watched tv. lionel is so cute!! :D but violent. oh well all lil kids are :3 had dinner. they karaoke. screams. psycho people. camwhore. had a great day. it went better than perfect. LG = legendary

19 august

coach seng gang's birthday

get well soon (:
waffles it is <3

2011/2012 installation :B

tong tong and siew khea :3

daa and syaa (:

sexychai :D

the year 2011/2012

2011-08-20T00:49:00.003+08:00

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea

I'll sail the world to find you

If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see

I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of

What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like one, two, three

I'll be there and I know when I need it

I can count on you like four, three, two

And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends

Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh

If you toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep

I'll sing a song beside you

And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me

Everyday I will remind you

Find out what we're made of

What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like one, two, three

I'll be there and I know when I need it

I can count on you like four, three, two

And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends

Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh, yeah, yeah

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry

I'll never let go, never say goodbye

You can count on me like one, two, three

I'll be there and I know when I need it

I can count on you like four, three, two

And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends

Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh

You can count on me 'cause I can count on you

installation was on friday. a day to remember. we shall forgive and forget for now. hugs and kisses people

yesterdays memories

2011-08-17T09:02:00.002+08:00

what's wrong with being number 2? - morrie. on tuesday, i found out we dont need to pass up the proposal. stress. did some revision on maths. no chem today. get well soon teachers child (: after lunch we all got to skip class to practise the installation thingy. tareq it is. after school i went straight to the hospital. my grandfather is there. studied while watching tv. ate junk. left the hospital at 8. cleaned up and ate dinner and that was the end of me.

its a holiday today :D 17 ramadan (i remember) it was the day the first wahyu came. aweshums. i slept for 10 hours and now i feel dizzy. shall study today if i can. im hunger now :/ today wont be that bad i guess

living in a dead world

2011-08-15T23:16:00.002+08:00

death ends a life but not a relationship. what more can i say right? on saturday, i followed my mom to giza. ate baskin robbins for lunch. sasd child. at 5 i called amer to ask where was he and nil. they picked me up dropped nil off at curve and we went to ou. wanted to watch captain america but only the front row was left. sad people. so we chose a show that was before 5 which was cowboy and aliens. hmm it was bad real bad can die watching it. i talked throughout the whole movie. after the movie i followed amer to buka at a mamak. when we arrived there was no one there but after a while more people started to come in and the smokers just had to sit around me. called my mom to ask if she was done so we could have dinner together but she told me she was eating already. pissing off k. so then i joined her. we ate at full house. went home and i was half dead.

on sunday, i followed my aunty home. one of my cousin is leaving to uk. haih i'll miss her. we talked and went to hsc to eat moo cow. it was okay but tutti fruity is still better. and snowflakes..haih. my brother and i left for dinner.

monday..hmmm.. there were only 3 public speakers so it cuts down the boredom. teacher came for add maths. there was no bm. i had a long talk with jun rui and it was depressing. i wanna runaway. but i never do. typical me. so after school dylan and all were talking, did i mention that dylan was holding an ice cream. so i went over to dylan's ice cream, took one mouth which i thought would be half the ice cream but instead i took all of em' he was looking at his cone ice cream-less and he was like nevermind. oops. after that i had mcd. mmhmm happy child. went home read 3 pages of sejarah. slept. ate dinner. realised that i have bio to do. did it halfway and jun rui said he's done. i finished it at 2.30 or earlier then i did my est and slept. it was close to 3.30 then.

id look back

2011-08-12T23:38:00.003+08:00

running through memories. thinking eh you retard or what? i just finish reading the rage of angels. so many people die. he's a mean author. i dont understand physics o.o shall fail this test. i havent started yet. such a fail. i had siew yok the best of the best :3 i didnt know where to go after school so i went to look for my cousins. the adorable people (: i wanted to follow them to ou but then i got lazy and stayed to watch shows and movies. timothy is 8 and he is :B haha he lost his two front teeth and when he laughs or smile he is adorable :3 i watched 2012 and the prince of egypt. not bad. i slept watching spongebob. i woke up to watch desperate housewives. ate at 12.45. supposedly i was suppose to go back home at 8.30 so i decided not to eat at my aunts place but my mom ask my brother to fetch me at 9. he scolded me because he thought i was else where so he screwed me on the phone. my mom only came at 10. i was famished. so i ate maggi which killed my stomach. because it has been left empty so long when food goes in it feels like poison. have fun going out with your girl friends. you too nice..

she misses you

2011-08-11T00:45:00.003+08:00

i ate chocolate today. i took two and the rest went to the whole class. i-zhec is a scary person. gahh.. i just realised how lazy i have gotten. i havent finish writing the letter. not done with my moral, sejarah notes(have not started), add maths and study D: i shan't go out. oh wait i cant actually. everything is about you isnt it? i was crying like some 3 year old kid and all i get is that? i dont deserve being treated this way. you're just plain mean. i got feelings too you know. like my sister post about that old man. good or bad? no one knows? but i know this is bad its really bad. im seriously lost. the feeling of not being bothered is not what im feeling now. its hard for me to breathe at times. bear with me a lil while. will you?

i no soul

2011-08-09T22:20:00.002+08:00

i shall cheer up and not get myself screw again :/ wish me luck

i wish things would get better..

2011-08-09T21:22:00.004+08:00

maybe its not mine like what my mom said. it wasnt meant to be mine. but why the second time. im currently depressed so anything can make me upset now. oh wait im already upset. im a sad child. i lost it again. everyone that knows about it is telling me to tell ehem off. but i dont know how. my mom is definitely not happy with me. who is anyway? i didnt have the mood to do anything but there monthly test around the corner and im sure to fail it. it definitely isnt my first time. i cant blame anyone. it was my fault for trusting people. im sorry for being an idiot. i shall isolate myself again. make myself useful. oh wait thats impossible. i'll just stay away from everyone. be a loner and everyone else will be better off anyway. nothing i do is right. nothing is right. my brother wont be happy with me either and when my sister finds out (wont be long) no one shall trust me again. i wont have anyone. all i can do is cry but that wouldnt change a thing. leaving is what i do best. oh wait my mom is pissed not unhappy but pissed really pissed. she's putting me in a very tough position. i dont know who to talk to now. i wanna be taken away to somewhere far away from here. somewhere i would feel free. i can only think of one word now. d.... nevermind. i wish i could but even ..d doesnt want me there. im lost now

everything needs a pause

2011-08-08T22:53:00.003+08:00

aida reminded us that monthly test is around the corner and that there's a lot to read for sejarah. haih. such a phailure. everyone regreted coming to school because we didnt have add maths and sejarah. last week was academic week and we decorated our class and today teacher told us to take them off. i was like whut?? -.- hard work k. the whole class did something. something to remember. everyone had fun and we are all epic people. we bonded in a way. except for jonathan and peviter. lol. we didnt do much today. i didnt eat from morning till 5 then i ate noodles. and i puked. then i didnt eat dinner after that. went home and slept. i have no mood at all. so sorry if i did spoil yours.

ashes that burn

2011-08-07T00:29:00.002+08:00

haih i've been eating a lot lately. i feel bad nao. sometimes i vomit after eating but most of the time i just try not to. open day today. reached school at 8.30. i had to drag myself outta bed k. so tired. we practised for a while then we had a break then we rested and we walked around. looked for sya. performed at 1. it was hot loike hell. my tick tock didnt go up :B heh. our surpries was seng gang coming to see us perform. they bought him cupcakes and each cupcake it spelled his name. he dropped the s so it became eng ang. LOLOLOLOL. after that he left. he nearly cried because he love us too much :D <3 we shall go to gym and visit him.

no one said it was easy

2011-08-05T22:47:00.003+08:00

today haih we only did add maths. but i brought maths. sad child. sometimes i wonder what is up with you. you said i get pissed easily and all but today something has gotten into you. all of a sudden you got all fired up then you ask me whats my problem? seriously laa. you must chillingz. first things first i would like to say something is wrong with you. second, im tired of school. third, im hungry. fourth, i wanna see my sister NOW. fifth, why sleep so early? ): get well anyway. you shall rest well and i shall wait and disturb you tomorrow. so academic week 2 just ended. our class won about 4 to 5 prizes same like arts i think O: together we awesome. they stole a copyrighted move and shaun was like but yue jen also in cheer what. haih daa deal with it k. tomorrow is open day, so lazy to perform. we hafta perform at 1 -.- i bet it'll be later. wish us luck. lol..

its syaa alright

2011-08-04T23:11:00.004+08:00

best of friends since 2009

love her and together we shall rule the world

she is retarded in a good way, who isnt

happy sweet sixteen syaa (:

i laffs you <3 ^^V

dont thought, think

2011-08-03T23:03:00.006+08:00

everyday im waiting but nothing. they say if you dont do anything nothing will happen. but when i try i get nothing. its always you. thanks for ditching me people very kind of you. talking to you people can kill me k. everyday i get effed up replies from you people. you guys can disturb me but when i do disturb you guys, you get so wind up. yea i am to be blamed. you already know so why bother saying anything.

HAPPY BELATED SOU MUN (:

she painted the angry bird :D

i laff her :p

will you stay awake?

2011-08-01T23:39:00.002+08:00

every word you say i take it seriously. you're just being mean. you never listen to me. its always my fault. cause you're older and we're related doesnt mean you can be so mean. i got feelings too ya'know. it was just after cheer i went out every weekend. look at the number of weeks i stay at home. you dont even come home sometimes. since you said she would be a better sister then be her brother and make her your sister. im upset really down. there's a reason why i go out and i know why you do too. i want a break from all of this. i should just shut up when you're around. not like im heard when i speak anyway.

half heartedly..

2011-07-31T01:22:00.004+08:00

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

pop goes the weasel

2011-07-30T23:54:00.004+08:00

i finished reading 'tell me your dream' and boy the dad is an ass. psycho k. today i went out with jaime yue jen sou mun and lyn xie. we kinda celebrated sou mun's birthday. it was legendary. we were all supposed to meet at 10 but i woke up at 9. everyone was late. i was the latest cause i ate brunch before i went there. we all met up at cupcake chic. they bought macaroons and cupcakes. lyn xie chose a lavender flavoured macaroon and it tasted like perfume. i have never tried eating perfume but it seriously did taste like perfume. after that we went around looking for clothes. yue jen and i left to get sou mun's present. we walked and walked and walked stopped and walked again and we found it at padini. we bought her a jumpsuit and a necklace. its the camera one. rushed to the gardens and met up with them again. couldnt eat because the movie was starting in 5 minutes and yes we were late but still late or not i didnt really get the movie. i was blur. after the movie we went to almost every floors toilet and it was full. after that jaime and i talked and she said seng gang (not a typo k) is cute. *coughs* LOLOLOL. slowly one by one went back. lyn xie sou mun jaime me and then yue jen. it started and ended well. oh yeah we met KAH SING on the way back to curve. funny right jaime? hahahahahahahahhahaha. got home and felt sick again. shhhhh. talked to fatttyy on the phone for a while. miss her like i always have. toodles (:

it was chun heng's birthday yesterday

mwehehehehe suchi chai :D

its said to be and it has been

2011-07-30T00:28:00.002+08:00

its friday, we did an experiment during physics. it was..okay. we did a lil for maths and add maths. during the whole two periods of bm, we were practicing the sajak thingy. i was sick. i felt tired and weak. after class i followed syaa home. we ate mcd. we cool people because we ate spicy chicken mcdeluxe. we talked and talked. memories we had and shared. all together it was a mixture of pure awesome-ness. we changed and we went to the club. the bukit kiara equestrian and country resort. the performances were epic. someone proposed to syaa. it was umm *speechless. so many people lied. even kay the monkey could come. she even brought her psp -.- the only bestarians were gerard and i.

after the party, i send gerard home and i went to bangsar with my mom. she had to attend a dinner and when it comes to food why not right? we went to monte's. it was okay. i wanted alexis D: there was a 4 year old girl there. i wanted to be friendly but she creeped me out. her laugh. god. i swear i had a nightmare because of her laugh. went home at 11.30 and slept.

kaya and sya (:

geerad and sya :p

ameen ;)

the people who bothered to come :')

was it even said or showed?

2011-07-28T23:18:00.004+08:00

i just realised i twisted my ankle thrice in my life (:

something to be proud of? lolol quite laa

the first time was in 2010.

i remembered it was a week before competition

it was the 2nd of july when my sister left for australiaaaaa

the second time was this year 2011

it was 3 weeks before the day cheer got postponed

i was doing an lib extension arabesque

it was the 21st of june

the third was epic lolol

i twisted slash sprained slash i dont know during cheer comp itself

what was more epic than that was i twisted slash sprained slash i dont know not during a stunt :@ it was before a stunt which was pyramid

what was cool after i twisted slash sprained slash i dont know my ankle i still managed to do a 360

mwehehehehe too legendary to describe the pain (there wasnt any)

but walking after that was hell. can die. i had to tiptoe the twisted slash sprained slash i dont know leg the whole day

i thought i even lost my shoe

anyway it was the 24th of july

feeling proud but because of this im doubting myself

speak and be heard

2011-07-27T22:28:00.002+08:00

some things never change and it will always stay the same. my throat is killing me. i sleep for an hour and i end up waking up thanks to my cough. how can i rest?!?!

quit the crap talking

2011-07-27T09:41:00.003+08:00

paranoid? full of it. misunderstandings? all the time. jumping into conclusion? always. feel like an idiot? shoot me someone. nothing i think or do makes sense. patience? whats that. im sorry for what i said but i bet you did it anyway. its always me when it comes to telling the truth or reason. i hear nothing from you. you always say oh nothing nevermind and all but if i said those words you'll be like tell me now and all. its hard to always be forced to say things that i normally keep to myself. you all think im happy and lucky and all. but somethings i just fake it out. not easy to live k. to live you'll have to pay a price which no one is willing to. so there's always someone that'll suffer in the end. one has to let go the other needs to be tougher and the rest just have to be considerate. everyone wants the easy way out. there are only a few who is willing to work for it.

so anyway, im slacking in my studies. i RETIRED from cheer. please stop asking me to join its not that i dont wanna join and all but i made a promise so deal with it people. 2011 cheer was great but that doesnt mean it will be in 2012. put yourself in my shoes for once. i get easily distracted. im lost in every subject im taking i dont even get what teacher is talking about. my results are crappy. look at my position for once and stop asking me about cheer. cheer is over and it will be for me. i didnt put cheer in my future i make it a childhood thing.

i didnt go to school today cause i feel sick like really sick. getting out from bed is one hell of an effort. walking makes me feel like im falling.

i feel devastated. i caused a misunderstanding because i was paranoid which caused me to jump into random conclusion and now i feel like an idiot. sorry..

rest in pain

2011-07-26T22:05:00.005+08:00

i feel like dying now. both mentally and physically. one its because i have to wait until thursday which i dont think i can even survive until that day (aida will use the mata rata philips and screw me into piece) and two im drop dead sick. i cant feel a thing. my head is burning like a volcano that is gonna erupt soon. the flu slash sinus im having is like the niagara falls at its highest speed? lol my phlegm is killing me. and god having sore throat is hell. every time i sneeze or cough my head goes woozy. its like im drunk and high. wait i dont do alchohol. im tired. bye world..

i dont even have the strength to call people. i cant even lift the phone. you're lucky i did.

never expected it to turn out like this

2011-07-25T08:57:00.005+08:00

hey cheer comp ended yesterday, it was great at first but then.. lets skip that part. so we were the third to perform. we were fine until it was our turn to perform. thinking all those times we put our asses in during practice. pushing and being pushed. i figured it was worth it everything was. there was two reasons why i actually went for cheer comp. one is because it'll be my last year joining cheer and two i figured that it was all plain bullshit after yesterday. nothing i mean nothing is worth waiting for. i hear stories, i SEE, i know and now i believe. first things first i dont break peoples relationship i dont even get involved. so after we performed all of us just split up until it was lunch time when we all gathered again and then we split up again. at first i was with paggie and dong may and big angry bird that was supposed to be given to seng gang (: he liked it i think. we were watching and eating then i wondered off around the stadium. after a while i met up with suchi and she got tired so we were at the supporters there and she slept. then jia ming came along soon after that his cousin came. i was stupid enough to rush down at 3.30 to watch a performance that i regretted watching. thanks for making my day -.- i cheer i screamed and i regretted. that kinda normal actually but this time its just plain awful. after that i went to the cheerleaders seat and waited until every performance was over. and until the results were announced. rushed to look for people to take pictures with them but then i saw.. haih )': i went away after that. super depressing k. after the photo session with the coaches i was told about something then i figured that i should just give up. like i always do. i guess this is the end of this post...

whee :D

our basket tosses :p

zhong lin (:

pandaman :3

us cheerleaders of 2011

a thousand miles starts with a single step

2011-07-21T23:27:00.003+08:00

my muscles are aching. my back is sore. my arms are weak. im losing my appetite. i just wanna sleep now. sometimes i feel like an idiot waiting. thinking its worth it but knowing its not. fatttyy come back or take me with you. im falling into pieces. i dont know how but im gonna take my spot back. i believe that whats mine is mine and once its mine it shall be mine forever. stop me and i will fall. im like a rock at times. i only sink and never fly. useless bugger. hoping that sleeping isnt a problem and waking up is impossible. lies helps a person to move on and make the other perosn an idiot. and btw sometimes you people have to shut up just because you didnt get what you wanted. cursing people will never make your life better. think mirror.

note to self: have faith.

it may not be my day today but i swear it would be in the future

2011-07-21T23:13:00.003+08:00

its been a while. i dont know what you're up to. i dont wanna lose faith in anyone anymore. in 3 days time i shall officially retired from cheer. i would like time for myself and not to bother about anything. maybe cheer comp will be the last time i'll see you. i dont know whats gonna happen next but i hope everything will be fine. im a faithless person. giving up is easy and i like taking things easy. i give up easily. cheer has been my life but now i dont even think i have a life. everything is depressing. im living in despair. i know that there are people out there starving and fighting for their lives but why cant everyone be the same. being one and not apart. i dont think there's anything harder than life and anything easier than dying. fate is uncontrollable. if only it was. then my journey shall end here.

if i were to say its sunny today meaning it will only last a while

2011-07-20T21:43:00.004+08:00

continued..after the speech all of us had to rush to the side of the stage. seriously it was freezing. and i forgot my vest. some of us rushed to call our parents. took the prize went down and waited. the toilet was cramp and all but we managed to get out in one piece. the play was good. sya and wendy's part is epic. after the play almost everyone left the table. su chi ditched us to sit with paggie and all. almost everyone was acting like a jakun.

after hari anugerah we went to ou. thank you steven. we as in aida mei nab and i. went there just for c3. when we arrived we found out we were 5mins late for nicoles performance. watch about 1 or 2 performance then we went to eat at new york deli. we ate CHOCOLATE FONDUE WITH FRUITS AND YUMMY STUFFS. it was good. walking to new york deli was hell. the heels keel. we didnt know where to go after that so we went to ground floor to watch c3. halfway watching my phone died. ftp. went to look for nicole after mei went home. called my mom and people. then went back up. ignored by aida and nab so i walked around looking for food. and i did tell aida that my phone died but i still dont know why she texted me. when i sat down to eat, i saw derek. he's a sad boy. he got ditched by suit yee. kidding he was waiting for her. i made him watch cheer but it was towards the end already. but she found me in the end. met aimran and all. met up with su chi and we were planing to eat but slowly one by one went home. and daaa i did regret not talking before leaving. left at 8 ate dinner and my legs were dead by the time i went home.

its miracle if you say so

2011-07-17T01:08:00.005+08:00

on saturday morning, had breakfast with my mom and went to some opening of a shop? anyway after that i went to ou to watch c3. arrived there about 1 something. walked around to look for food. got my shirt then i sat. a few minutes later i saw suchi and we sat for a while. after nicole performed nicole came and we left to look for shoes. its gold :3 mwehehehehe. we ate at auntie anne's and lava. nat wanted to eat sushi but we had to leave. went to sunway for dinner with my godmother. i couldnt and cant recognize her. close to 10 years i guess. went to dragon-i to eat. ugh so frustrating k on that day. so we ordered and then me and nat left to get crispy chicken xxl. it was only about 10 mins after we left and my mom called to say the food came and all. when i got to my table my food wasnt there. the waiter came with something which wasnt mine -.- it was my godmothers boyfriend order. if he's order came and everyone had theirs it only meant one thing. he took mine D: his meal was supposed to be ramen and some chicken thing. and mine was rice -.- wadafak he cant even different shape the difference between rice and noodles -.- after he finished MY meal he dared to ask for my chicken which was supposedly supposed to be his but it became mine because he took my order so i had to take his. huh. he even offered my chicken to the others -.- after the meal he was like oh btw the meal you ORDERED FOR ME was good. i wanted to choke him k D: followed nat home and got home at 12. tiring day but it was worth it. i spotted to spotting me :D

sunday the sunny day, i woke up late, so waking up late leads to reaching the legend hotel late. but after reaching there i realized i wasnt late and i should have reached later. the speech was uggh so long... to be continued :D

dream big, please

2011-07-15T00:06:00.005+08:00

yesterday, in the morning there was a very bad jam. it tasted awful. was stuck on the bridge for 2 hours. after that my mom and i gave up and decided to eat. my mom wanted to send me back to school but the jam was horrible. btw a dump truck was burnt. so i went back home and then back to school at 1.30. we finished cheer early. after 3 hours of practice straight, all of us felt like dying. suchi and i went to mamak thinking fing may went home. ooops. thank you ping kuang for sending us there. after that we went back to school and saw the supporters props. so yeng k.

today, school was as usual. no homework for the weekend. wheeeeeeee. we had mcd for lunch. yuejen and fongmay did the props i sat and watch and slept. lololol. when teacher came back we did the cards for cheer. glitters glue paint. everything was on the floor. almost all of us had a written masking tape. i had a drawing of me and two legendary. aida and mei ying exchanged their names. so did intan and i, hui teng and dayaNA. we did everything neatly. intan got her twist but it was on elevator. on monday we shall try on extension liberty. tomorrow is gonna be one of a day.

happy birthday dzakwan (:

stay chubby

when i see sparkles it reminds me of you

2011-07-13T00:40:00.004+08:00

or maybe me. legendary i tell you. everyday may seem like a bad day but in the future you will be thankful of your past. people say without it there is no you today. its true. partially. it doesnt mean that you dont have to do anything in the future. so we shall kick our butts and get things moving. nothing will happen if you and you dont bother helping each other. someone has to give in or make a move first. so people be nice. regretting is bull. if everyone regrets on something small then i shall regret living on this earth with people who are so heartless. for the past few days i've been cold to them. its just the beginning for now it'll end soon cross my heart. have fun is sydney fatttyy (: i'll miss you.

last saturday i slept over nats house. her bed is love. we hanged out at dpc. met suchi who was supposed to sleepover but haih.. so when we got to nats house we were half dead.

on sunday we followed nat to gis. seriously i wanted someone to kill me cause we were doing nothing there :/ i had to stretch cause when there's nicole there's no rest. haih.. at 3 we went to curve had lunch. we wanted to watch a movie but practically every movie at that time was sold out. sad life. they had ice cream and i was waiting for my mom. i was supposed to eat snowflakes but haih we had to fetch my brother who didnt take his car and on the way home after fetching him, he said he didnt feel like eating. so yeah. its obvious i didnt get my snowflakes. sad life. went to mont kiara after that. had dinner went home and bye bye.

on monday we had school. assembly. blah blah blah. cheer started at 1.45 which is just sad cause before this we started at 1. it was tiring but it was all worth it. cheer could have ended on monday cause cheer comp was supposed to be on saturday and sunday :/

the following day, tuesday. there was a rehearsal for hari anugerah. mwehehehe so we skipped class till break. we didnt do much during the four periods before lunch. after that we had nsw so that means we had no class. because of nsw cheer started at 3.40. thank god k (: because after cheer practice we had to go to another one. can die. slept at 2 because i was'busy'. lolol cheer ended at 9.30. we had to fit 6 people in a car D: felt like dying. nil brought his ipad 2! i like the game i think its called stupid samurai or something.. lawl. i went home and ate :3

ignoring or to be ignored

2011-07-11T22:23:00.003+08:00

i dont read minds. thats a fact. i expect people to read mine but you my friend kay maybe not really a friend but still, you are making me read you mind. everything is going haywire now bud. the earth is spinning west to east now. not that i know you well or anything but you did this a few months ago and it im serious it did not turn out well. im mean but when im mean i have a reason its either i hate you dislike you feel like killing you or i like you. so.. be nice and i shall. lol joke. my leg is killing me again. walking is hell. jumping is.. speak no more. school is fine. life? mmhh not really just depressing. i'll be waiting. promise

gasping for air, but nothing

2011-07-09T09:04:00.002+08:00

this is the first. falling down so hard and struggling to get back up. doubting myself. torture myself to achieve something. thats normal. but now? it seems like its easier to fall down and harder to get back up. challenge? not my type. because of that im doubting myself even more. sometimes i wish life wouldnt be so mean. but who knows.. during the past few days we have been practicing but it doesnt seem like we're putting any effort in it. maybe that just me.. i dont have the mood to study.. nat is back but thanks to the bersih rally thing we cant go too far. going dpc with her for dinner and then sleepover. mwehehehehe why not awake yet. i slept at 10 yesterday. proud. but now my back hurts. sick and tired. aida is not around hopes she comes back soon from where ever she is right now.

ps aida: add maths hw pg 118 and 119 practice 22 and 23 :D

all i need is you

2011-07-08T00:33:00.004+08:00

dear fatttyy,

im depressed. i dont know what to do. everything i do makes everything worst. but i cannot not do anything. i wanna cry. i cant sleep. im tired of everything. its too hard for me. maybe because im not trying but im lost now. i dont wanna be me. i wanna leave. i shall but when the time comes..

im tired of him

im tired of her

im tired of life

im tired of everything

im tired of being tired of him

im tired of being tired of her

im tired of being tired of life

im tired of being tired of everything

i just wanna rest

call it a miracle

2011-07-07T22:12:00.002+08:00

and i shall call you dumb. everything is a lie. face it. being naive is horrible not knowing anything about a thing. thinking you know that thing but whatever you know about that thing you just found out it was all a lie. jeng jeng jeng and then you found out you are an eedyot and you just got pawned. ouch big time. thinking you can rule the world but actually you did. burn. i've got the chills-s-s-s-s-s-s. i cant feel my leg-g-g-g-g. i feel like dying-g-g-g-g now. bye world

can it be proven

2011-07-06T22:44:00.003+08:00

i know i sleep late but how can you people sleep later at like 4 -.- rest more people you can die of tiredness i think.. we're not doing much in school anymore. im so tired i wanna take a break form breathing. i shall break down anytime soon. school is boring nao. we do nothing so is cheer. hari anugerah is on the 17th lawl. NAT IS COMING BACK ON FRIDAY.wheeeeeeeee sleepover time. i dont have the mood to do anything today. i will be in a bad mood tomorrow fo sho. i wanna curl into a ball and sleep. everyday seems creepy to me now. the point where there is no reason to live anymore is where im at now. there is only one thing i want but if i do get it i will be screewd and if i dont i'll probably die of depression. im lost. im being cold again. ignore is what i do best but i can do it now. everything i need or want..there's always something bad about it and im sure of that.

the point of no return

2011-07-05T00:20:00.003+08:00

everyone is arguing over something. something that isnt worth arguing. let go and let the wind blow. dont just stay in your shoes. move around. its hard and annoying but still. you being inconsiderate is enough but its reflecting you and your reflection is always near you. saying you need to care more about yourself please you have been doing that for the past years even since you were born. i say 1 then you'll say 2 then it goes on and on. it never ends. someone has to give in. either that or find a solution that'll make both parties happy and satisfied.

on the count of 10

2011-07-03T22:12:00.003+08:00

dont be mean. do as you like k. suits yourself. dont let me down again cause you just did. i never understand or know what you're thinking. that goes to all of you out there. lies you tell me or other people makes you look like an ass. so stop k. dont give anyone hope on anything just go with the flow will ya? not knowing what you're thinking is scary enough and now this? god kill me. kidding kill them. please and thank you. i'll make sure i get everything i worked for and btw you're just being like her so it doesnt and didnt make any difference to this year.

about yesterday..

i'll talk about it sometime later

release and i will fall

2011-07-02T01:25:00.003+08:00

dont let go of anything you like or love whatever. just dont. you shall regret it for sure so dont. for instance i have to let go of peanut butter and all. its devastating. im hungry and i shall eat peanut butter sandwich and french toast and tea. oh wait i cant eat any of those -.- the person said i could only eat them AFTER it heals. why cant it be DURING it healing? corn is fattening i like (:

glucose you banyak awesome oh

my lol friend

2011-07-01T23:54:00.003+08:00

such a lol-er. haha funny but a nice friend and weird sibling. today a friday my favourite day. so school today we didnt get to practise during school hours. blah blah blah.. so we practised after school but before that i went out to eat with jaime and her mom (: lyn xie, joe yi, yue jen, sou mun and seing yee was theere. swag wasnt there D: we ate at paparich. thanks auntie lisa (: the form 5's had motivation camp. so cheer was without nicole.lily had tuition. so we did intan's stunt and jumps and dance and whole routine. i gots it a spike fo real this time :3 wheeeeeee sho happy can die. after cheer i felt like dying. so tired. still am. there so much notes to do D: haih. chaooooooooooozzzzzzz

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUE JEN (:

dont change and be the same k

silver lining

2011-06-29T22:43:00.005+08:00

its true. so you see i twisted my ankle but during the period of waiting for it to heal got me to rest and not eat certain things and jeng jeng jeng i got to REST :D anyway now they are saying that cheer comp is postponed to the 24th and its a 1 day comp.i know i know what the hell are they thinking! dumb rally. its 1 day only )': i knew it was gonna be bad when me and sya saw it on the newspaper. haih so that means that bio trip thing is postponed too? i did stunts today and im awesome :3 i finally got a spike but its on the floor. tried double but i did one and a half and that was the most. basket was ugghh. i can do a bow and arrow nao *pause* and again finally. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D i finally got my present from my sister :D its a jayesslee shirt. it says i love twins. muahahaha..

cheek-dorable

2011-06-27T22:37:00.003+08:00

blanket. *hugs* today is just rather unproductive. oh wait everyday is the same to me..my bad. so hmm..monday right. umm we have to study again. mood is gone. i totally forgot everything that i have learnt in the past 6 months. thats just sad. so we had cheer till 6 as usual. im such an angel cause i finished my bm like three days before the due date. normally i do it a few hours till its bm. haih. cant pull spike again. must train harder, work harder and be awesomer. i bolehs punya (: we gots our full routine already but its just messy. as usual but we shall and will make it look awesomer and cleaner. see you on cheer comp :D *click*

fill me in

2011-06-26T16:00:00.002+08:00

*licks lips* i slept at 3 woke up at 1.30 . i missed breakfast. but i had a filling lunch so everything is ay okay nao. but the weighing scale just hates me now. we have homework. homework is fine but when it comes to bm its like ugghh whai me? seriously karangan is just too tiring and i have to do this and that and i wanna go out. if we could claim back our holidays i would cause because of cheer i had 1 week less of holiday. fly me to singapore bi'ch. have to start studying and stop complaining. we'll see what happens..

breaking down

2011-06-26T01:28:00.004+08:00

people please dont hurt yourself. mentally or physically. it keels me k. fatttyy i miss you and i shall find a way to find you. report card day was on friday. my momma was pleased i guess. twisted leg you shall be amputated. jkjk lololol. i just wanna practice now. dennis came on friday we learnt the dance. haih. so anyway on saturday which is yesterday or today (its a today for me) we went for sas's iu day. it was good real good. bryan *coughs* daa *coughs* ong.. went to ikea then curve met aini and all then we flew to kepong. crawled to sunway bb gym. jogged to empire and went home. i can eat bak kut teh. im awesome :D jeng jeng jeng. i cant eat anything sour spicy cooling? so hard k. my daily diet has to change so sometimes i dont bother eating. sya you owe me big time just to remind you and thanks yea :/ lets just hope my leg is fine by monday and we can get our practices during school hours. its so hard to walk around with a retarded leg and not being able to practice a single thing -.-

happy birthday james (:

stay adorable :B

and you too aunty (:

have a great one

im desperate nao

2011-06-22T22:28:00.002+08:00

guess what? -.- i practically cant eat anything.. so im not allowed to eat peanut nuts whatever. which means no peanut butter sandwich :/ then im not allowed to eat eggs for 2 whole weeks. thats just sad. other than that seafood -.- haih even fish said nicole. i'll just starve so at the same time nothing will happen to my leg and i shall lose weights. and i cant eat or drink anything cold. thats just mean.

if it had been

2011-06-21T23:55:00.005+08:00

id been glad. waiting is not a solution so i'll just not wait but stay at a side. i dont know whether to hate myself or die. how much more unlucky i can get like seriously man. shoot me in the head i dare you to. i am to be blamed. who else to blame. me of course it has always been me. not that im useful anyway. back off and things will get done somehow. my left leg just hates me for no reason. i twisted/sprained my ankle i just know that if it doesnt heal in a week time im just dead. so dear god i just hope everything will go smoothly cause every time i expect something, something really bad happens. everyone gots to chill a lil cause it wouldnt help one bit if no one get a thing. it hurts like crap. sorry for being useless ..

tomorrow is harith's birthday

i'll just wish him in advance

happy early birthday noob-er (: